Interested and not

I am having second thoughts applying on a call center job. Since I have the guts but not the mood about it. Honestly, I got big problem with my English specially in vocabulary speaking.

For the time being I am blogging to enhance my skills on writing. It really helps and get you into challenge every time others like my readers comment on my grammar, English and spelling hehehehe.... My point is, here in my country as the English is the second language I envy those who can. I can clearly see my self in the edge of a cliff while listening to my English subject classmates that can almost speak like foreigners with there accent.

To bad for me, I can hardly speak because I can not express much in English or even match it with the right term before I speak or answer. I am always down during and after a little talk in English even in a normal conversation. I can articulate things in mind but I can't let it go. I can't even say it properly without having tongue twists on its own while pronouncing a word or a answer.

Even with this downfall I make it positive. Being positive makes me feel it is not my limit, it is not my time to end without trying, it is not my only problem others do too. As a start i am honored to cater any opinion and ideas criticizing my grammar, spelling and English. Hoping you guys will help ^^.

Flocks of the same feathers make the stick duster stronger ^^v

A day to remember

This coming Aug. 27 will be the 3rd year of my Father's stroke condition.
My family is in struggle since sickness came, even our relatives extending there effort too to provide enough medication for my papa. Since then, 2 years past we always commemorate the day not because he was sick that time but the essence of bonding that strengthen our family and others. Working as a team both household and taking care of my papa.

Each year all of our friends and relatives will be on that day. And you can see the happiness from my papa's smile and smile from his visitors. You can also see life for every "Hi and Hello, how are you? and don't mind about your illness, just be happy because we're here for you" conversations.

In 3 years of financial and attending to papa's needs problem, we all endured it. Even my Lola (Grandmother) also gives her time to his son, talking to him, giving him snacks every afternoon and even cook for him. My Lola is 87 and still strong.

For three years we are hoping for cure. For three years we gave it all we have. For three years I realize how important family is.

One Godly day!

It was a bit surprising that my Aunt Marlyn (my boss) forgot that my partner here at work is on day-off this day. I was expecting someone to be my partner since it is common here at work if someone is on day-off she will ask somebody to be my partner for the day.

Hours past and I noticed that no one would come. I texted my Aunt Marlyn asking "how come I am only one here at work" hours later I received a call from one daughter her te`Chinkay and she ask me if I have a partner at work, I was laughing then and replied "none, hahahahaha" "are you ok being alone at work?" she seconded, "yes!" I said "it is good to work alone heheheheheh"

Past eight in the evening my Aunt Marlyn with his brother came fetching me with a good dinner.
And all my hard working and tiring day end after I ate it all.... hahahaha ^^v

You have the team spirit during work but you always on edge while alone

No exam permit, No Exam

On every universities around the globe experiencing alarming rate of students not paying their dues on time. Amount receivables each year reached strains on "cash flows and financial stability of the school".

Commonly, upper class year levels paid their fees toward the end of the semester or before the next semester's registration. As a private and has higher education institution does not receive any grant from the government for its operation as such universities depends on the money collected from the student each semestral bills.

In contrary for what they want to reach others about there financial problems students have it also. Delayed payments on every exam/semester gives stress on how they will come up with the amount they need to pay the school. Do they understand that situation like this? Admin must understand the status of their students letting them to be educated not just for they pay the school to do it but they giving the education as a gift for every student enrolled.

They are also true that they can only opperate well if they have funds. With the tuition plus the miscellaneous, aren't they enough? It is unfair for the students paying their payables but do not get the facilities for them to use or an operating one.

Education is for all, are all can afford education?

Christian the Lion

Talk about friendships and good companionship, Jheine send this video a while ago with the sniff of her nose crying telling me this video touches her emotion a bit.

John Rendall and Anthony 'Ace' Bourke owner of Christian the lion didn't expect or they expect that they will be recognized by this meeting even though they were advice that they may not be recognize because of being not together for a long time.

I am really surprise that the owner was not eaten, of actually it is the nature of the exotic animals. After they bought it when Christian still a cub in a shop on a cage, with 35-55 pounds they after they let Christian be in a widelife conservation program in Africa and they go back a year later to Christian not knowing what his reaction gonna be.

Christian looked at them and start running then he open his arms wide and start hugging them, in that scenario I did not see struggle or fear while they hugging the lion.

"We had such a beautiful relationship with him and there were such TRUST and such LOVE and he run towards us with such love and excitement in his eyes and we thought exactly the same way, we were so excited to see him looking so big and healthy and the story has just turned up so beautifully when it could have different ending" -Anthony-

wacky day ^^

Another wacky day my friends did yesterday.

after the memorial ceremony of one of our friend.
Our elders have this belief that after attending a burial
we must not be at home @ 12 midnight because of bad luck.


So with the majority agreed about it we decided to have our gathering in a KTV bar despite of what just sad happen.

we consider it as offer to the late auntie we have because we know
she is on God hands at the time.

We started choosing religious songs for the offering and afterwards the jamming starts.





from the selected loves songs to the hard rock that makes our throat inflamed and irritated hahaha so beer pop-up ^^v

I have to go back right away because of curfew hahaha.. den all stayed up until 1 am ^^v after that home they go ^^v

A Father's Love Letter

Fathers Love Letter - The funniest videos clips are here

A Father's Love Letter
My Child…

You may not know me, but I know everything about you.…Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.…Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.…Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.…Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.…Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.…Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring.…Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived.…Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation.…Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book.…Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live.…Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.…Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb.…Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born.…Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me.…John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love.…1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.…1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father.…1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.…Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father.…Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.…James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.…Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.…Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love.…Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore....Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.…Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you.…Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession.…Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul.…Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.…Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart , you will find me.…Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart.…Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires.…Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than
you could possibly imagine.…Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager.…2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles .…2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you.…Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart.…Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes.…Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth.…Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus.…John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.…John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.…Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you,not against you.…Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.…2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.…2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you.…1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love.…Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me.…1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again.…Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen.…Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father.…Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…Will you be my child?…John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you.…Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad. Almighty God

is it the right to do?

have you get into conclusion of giving up? sometimes? ya right.....

last week was my worst nightmare, that time I decided to give up and just let go. think of possibilities that compromises my situation. I have a sick father, unemployed mom, unfinished education, got 5 brothers and a cool job.

I was in the state of giving up when I got into a common work problem and that's the worst I really did. I really do my work, I'm into it but sometimes I randomly noticing that I do nothing at work. I am paid to work but sometimes I give 50% of dedication at work.

I simply don't want that my boss catch headaches by being stubborn at work so I come up of giving up. But my boss talked to me and told me that if it is me that is not satisfied or bored at work I will lose something if i give up the work. She always repeat the word "what will you be after you resign/give up?" i replied "i don't know, its up to nothing"

It is a risky one but I don't know. I probably confused with a guilt that I do nothing at work.

I am resolving what I am today so that I can give my 100% dedication at work. Wish me luck.

what if?

What if I stop on moving will I grow? This question got into my head after a little talk with my boss. She said why we put our time too much in computer games and less to work and to educational infos. She said "I only got one semester in college but been able to stand a business and sustaining growing children".

Shes insisting that not only in school or gaining diploma for a degree makes you a perfect "know how" person. The best teachings comes in each experience and reading.

I always hear the word "reading" while we talk. She said his father told them that even a news paper wrapped in a salted fish have informations, Informations either educational, news or something new around the globe.

The best part was, she told me "that will be me greatest gift I can bestow and you will remember me someday that I told you this" ^^v

A, prayer

Dear God,
In your humble name we plead
we ask for forgiveness and mercy,
guidance and grace.

In tears of your children's pain
we ask your healing hands to aid them
cover with your warm arms those family
who lose beloved one.

For every nation offering a prayer
for the calamity China and Burma they've suffered
gently aid there needs from the hand who can help them
until the aid comes and a shelter of safety.

In your name O God we humbly ask. Amen

My Angeli Domini 5th yr Aniversary party

Its been two years since we started. It was only three persons who started a little circle of prayers. Felson and his brother Felix and with kuya king (our seminarian friend) who initiated gathering friends.

From Altar servers, gift bearers, choir, and some friends that was not active before in church but after they have joined the group we encourage them to participate in church activities and apostolic service.
A two days activity held of our Parish (Immaculate Conception Parish of Mintal) was the most experience one among our four years activities. Outside the church we pray, randomly choosing a house to pray and stay for awhile. Some deny us but some were gladly accepted us. Unfortunately, I was not there ^^,


During the second day, at Villa Christina ( a pool resort ) kuya ricky share something about our theme for today "Keep the fire Burning". He tackle about praying, about Mary mother of Jesus and about mothers.

He started with what he heard last Sunday's homily by which "why, sometimes our prayers are delayed to be answered? Jesus can not answer all our petitions to him, because Mothers have a special place to Jesus heart when Mary the Mother accepted whole heartedly him"

After the sharing comes the eat feast and swimming ^^v

I was low bat then, so I have not catch all the pic pic thingy.

before 4 pm we go Home Sweet Home ^^b

Love you Mom

Love you mom! this greeting is occasionally been said to all Mothers every Mothers day, But our you sincere about saying it?

Since the day we are created as there children Mothers love is there. Since the 9 months of pregnancy mothers love is there. How lucky we are to have a mother on our side, since others, maybe forget how to have one or either they never felt having a Mother on there side.

Having a mother concept is not only for our biological mother, it has to do for all. Guardians like my grandma carries the title of being a mother to me. Since then I really consider my grandma as my Mother since I really hate my mother before.

My grandma guides me, teach me, scolding me when I do mistakes, and laugh when I give jokes made me a better person. I actually do compare myself to my brothers in behavior and attitude, even my father told my grandma (her mother) "thank you for raising me well" and every time my mother and I talk about something I always throw words like "how come i am so different with my brothers, since they grow along by your side."

But after those things i have said, I realize that being a mom is not an easy task. Turning there children to some relatives is not quite good experience. Since then, I am starting to accept my real mother and grow with her side once more. HaPPy MoTHers Day! ^^v

Faces

Looking to each faces, we notice there uniqueness. Some are pretty, some are in average, and some are not.

I was riding a jeep going to work when I notice it, I was looking to the faces of which we passed by. similarly, we often see other faces and we have a quite of critics among them.

But while I was in the middle of criticism, I reflected on the one word "we are created in the image and likeness of Christ" I quit critics and find myself seeing people as the master piece of Christ.

As I went home I realize something, emotions that came from each persons face is the window of what you are, and who you will be. ^^v

an forgetable day

It was the great day before a problem came and change my mood today.

Its been my 2yrs since my father got stroked, ever since then I am the one who's looking for there everyday needs. Not actually all of there needs but in major perhaps I am sustaining it.

hmmm... its been 2 weeks since the last day/time they took my salary. I am a bit surprise and also think that they have already earn money for the week. Careless enough, I spend my extra money for my break. I did watch Forbidden Kingdom, play a lot in arcades, buy clothings, and extras.

At that same they I receive a text message from home saying "if you have extra money there please share to us, papa don't have med enough for month". I am really stupid that time, I've been able to be happy then this thing pops out.

The last thing on my mind is to advance my next salary... but if I do that, I won't have my next one... so, I decided to ask somebody's help to lend me some money. So I ask all my friends that i can lend to but all deny to lend me some. with no further thinking I ask my boss to grant my salary advance. She did but what she have done was, she give me money for the med, not to mind it's not deducted to my next salary. They even ask, what's the name of the medicine my father is taking.

the next day, they gave a box (30pcs tablet) a medicine which I told them and that medicine is worth Php 500 a box. I was so thankful and holding my tears of happiness. When I got home, I gave the money and the medicine and my pap smiled at me the draw a heart shape in his chest saying "thank you and i love you" ^^c

a nightmare

Last night was a terrible night, I had this dream that keep on coming. Every Thursday night this dream is seems a continuation from my previous dreams.

It started last week, when I dream about I was flying from electric post to post. That I can feel the sensation of flying. way back, it started at my homeland Manila, Taguig City. when I about 6 yrs. old maybe, I jumped from our terrace and thats about a 5-6 ft i think but just before I landed, that very minute I realize I am flying. I flew around our house and to the other houses and that dream keeps me flying and flying.

the creepy part is last night, and maybe just maybe, it is the continuation of it. I was still flying right?! then a girl jumped into my back and she started shaking, and I saw her hand wanting to grab my neck. at that time I was awaken of such hand in my neck, I was in shock when I saw a RAT walk into my neck grrrrrrrrrrrr...... A rat! really it a rat! it walks above me. heehee and thats the time I am really aware that my dream coincide in real hahahaha.... creepy when a walked above me...

~end~ ^^v

pain on the neck!

last week was my craziest week that gave me a neck pain. Actually, me and some friends teasing each other with a girl who was looking to us (we are about 6) while we play drummania in NCCC mall Timezone. We are laughing, jab each others back and accidentally my karatedo friend chop me at the neck and that cause the pain.

during the chop I really felt that my back neck snap. I do not know if it is the bone or just some vein at my neck that snapped.

after I say "stupid! and sakit nun" ("stupid! that hurts") and my neck numb all night! so, I decided not to use pillow while sleeping to correct it (if it is really break or something) first morning that was a relief, the pain was gone after a few neck exercise. But during at work, I usually take a nap during my lunch break, I forgot the problem but instead I just lean on a wall then take a nap. Before I stood, that was the really pain on my neck. It snap again and the breaking feeling was intense that I thought my neck breaks to it.

so, I went to a barber shop to ask for some help. `coz, I observe, after a haircut they twist your head/neck and I really feel my stress gone. so, I ask them to help me paying the same amount for a normal haircut. But they refuse, instead they give me a massage, and that makes my neck more painful hahahahah...

after the session, the pain gone and my neck really feels the relief. hehehe ^^v

Goodwill?

Last night, before we closed the shop. while cleaning I notice a black nokia 5300 beside the PC monitor.

At first I was wondering how come? coz, it so happen that after a girl log-off on that PC, I immediately went to place and fix up. So, what comes on my mind that, theres no other costumer who log-on on that PC.

will I keep it or will I search the girl (as if she is outside looking for it too) hmmm... But i choose to keep it.

Right after I shot off the lights, someone knocked at the door and she yell that her cellphone left at the shop. so, I get the cellphone, open the door and gave it to her. Surprisingly,I didn't notice that she was my crush "blush" ^^

GOOD pogi points? heheheh nah... its a part of my job ^^v

sketch of life

During my college life, my mindset is to finish my course and pursue for a career. As if, it is the easiest task that I can really handle but financial crisis came and my college life was ended. I stop for that kind of reason, at first it was easy to accept and happy to have free life!

that time, I entered work. from a car wash boy to a fast food crew, that was my happy life ^^. I encountered many type of personalities. From a boastful to a really too kind person, I really mingle with them talking some topics while working. I gain friends out of it, I gain trust from our costumers, I gain confidence to talk to others.

while doing those tasks, I realize, sometimes that I really need a proper education. well, education is everywhere, anywhere that you can actually learn outside of schools but i was convince that I need it, we need it for the reason of a specialization of expertise. pursuing career and making it pass is a key of not only the success but the out world confidence that you can handle that career and proudly share to others.

'It is today we must create the world of the future.'
Eleanor Roosevelt